Are you okay?
We get it already, being the eldest daughter is not the easiest thing in the world and comes with many challenges and responsibilities that you put on yourself. But it’s not like you have a choice, it is just in your nature as the eldest daughter to behave the way you do.
What else are you supposed to do when you are born that way? It’s not like you can be the eldest daughter but just pretend to be the cool brother. You are really stuck in a sticky situation and just need to embrace the craziness that is inside of each of you.