Returning Home And Discovering That You Can No Longer Enter
Think about how distressing it would be to return home only to find that you are no longer welcome there. I assume that you have already had all of your personal effects removed. The final insult is that the person in whom you had the most faith has been lying to you the whole time. Even contemplating it was almost too much for Rebecca.
She wrote, “I felt ill and like I had no control, like I had been stabbed over and again and I was moving too slow to stop the bleeding.” She described the sensation as being similar to having a knife pushed into her chest. There was no comparison to the sorrow she felt at that moment.